January’s Journey

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I got fat.

Well not just fat, more like heart-attack-waiting-to-happen obese.

But let’s just back the food truck up for a minute here and start from the beginning.

Now, to truly start from the beginning, I need to take you back to August of 2014 when, on a snap decision made out of my husband’s mid-life crisis, I found myself in a mini van packed to the roof with my belongings heading back to my hometown in Michigan.

Lizzie did not survive the trip. I think she was just too old and hadn’t been feeling herself for some time. R.I.P my sweet, scaly girl.

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Anyhow, about 2 and a half months later, my husband Paul would walk away from our condo in Jacksonville and his property management job of 16 years to join me at my parents’ house with our 13 years of accumulated crap in tow. I had started working for my father at his auto repair shop, Paul got a short-lived job in property management for the first few months until that turned sour, at which point he decided to join the blue-collar world once again working in a factory. We rented a cozy little apartment in a quiet neighborhood, and we adore everything about living in a small town.

As for the kids, two of the five stayed in Jacksonville. Big Red moved to North Carolina with her new boyfriend. The oldest, her husband, and our grand baby decided to join us here in Michigan and get their own apartment. So we just have the youngest with us yet, and he’s 14.

I don’t know if I’ve ever really thanked my husband for his mid-life crisis yet, but it was the best decision we’ve ever made.

So now that you’re caught up on 2 years of my life in a nutshell,  you’re probably asking yourself, “What does any of this have to do with you getting fat?”

Well, the answer is 2 fold:

1 – Even though the move was a good one, I don’t adjust to change very well.

2 – Suddenly, without five mouths to feed we could afford food. Like…any food. All of the tasty, glorious, calorie-loaded food that we could get our lips on.

2 and a half-ish – having a sit-for-9-hours-a-day  desk job where customers are always bringing in donuts, pizza, and baked goods “just to say thanks” doesn’t help much, either.

Caloric intake doesn’t affect my husband much. As a matter of fact, he’s gotten skinny because his factory job keeps him in shape. He can shove anything into his gullet and not gain a pound. I hate him for this.

Me, on the other hand, I can just smell chocolate and gain 3 pounds. It’s like my metabolism got up and walked away when I hit 40.

So, I started gaining weight. Just a little at first, but then a little more. My dad would order himself and the other woman in the office some breakfast every morning. “Hey kid, you want anything?”… “Sure, dad, I’ll take ham, egg, and cheese on a muffin… and a chocolate milk.” Then I’d go get a greasy burger and fries and a big chocolate shake for lunch.

Oh, and not to mention the late night snacking just because I could. Doritos and Oreos? Sure, why not.

So the pants would get packed away to make room for larger sizes. Large and XL made way for 2XL and even some 3XL. It just kept getting worse.

The beginning of 2016 rolled around and I found myself in and out of the doctor’s office because of this pain or that pain. I’d look away when they’d have me step on the scale because I just didn’t want to know. I was depressed, partly because of what I’d let myself become but there were some other factors involved, too.

I started looking for a quick fix for what I had done to myself. I checked into bariatric surgery but insurance wouldn’t cover it. I started shopping around for miracle slimming pills…something that would shed the pounds quickly with no effort on my part. I checked out the Fit Body Boot Camp one morning, but decided it was just too intense for me. Nope. Not happening.

Around about the 6th of the year as I was driving home from somewhere that I can’t even remember, I recall thinking that maybe I should just drive into a tree at about 70 and be done with it. That’s a quick and easy fix. That’s about the time I realized how bad my depression had gotten and I ended up at church sobbing my heart out to my Pastor’s wife and getting some much needed encouragement. The following day, change started.

Change is hard.

Change is especially hard for people who fear change, and lets face it, are so lazy that they’d rather have a quick fix than put any real effort into getting back on track.

But, it happened, and as all change must, it had to start with a goal.

I gave myself the year to lose 107 pounds. That will put me right where I should be for my height and body type.

So where am I at today?

Well, I have lost 47 pounds, which leaves me with 60 to go.

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Here’s what else I’ve lost: Back pain, knee pain, shoulder pain, hip pain, ankle pain, night sweats, and low self esteem. The depression has gotten quite a bit better, too.

Here’s what I’ve quit to get here: Soda and other sugar-loaded drinks, candy, chips, sweets and junk-food, anything deep-fried, bread, potatoes, and some dairy. We don’t eat out much anymore, either, which has saved our bank account as well as my thighs.

I still have a long road to haul but I’m confident I can do it because some changes have already become habits. I really thought that giving up sugar would be hard, but that part hasn’t been too bad. Bread has been the hardest one to quit because so many things involve bread, but I’ve found some pretty creative ways to make breadless sandwiches.

I decided from the beginning that I’m not going to be one of those  people that has to keep annoying everyone with the constant updates of their weight loss journey, nor do I feel it’s my duty to become some outspoken advocate for health and wellness just because I’ve made it my personal goal to get on the right track. If you want a big old sloppy bacon cheeseburger,  fries, and a coke, well I’ll join you with my grilled chicken salad and water, and we’ll hopefully have some great conversation while we stuff our faces. I won’t judge. Nothing is more annoying than someone that jumps on a bandwagon and expects everyone else to join them, too. You live your life, I’ll live mine. Deal?

So consider this the first of maybe only two or 3 updates that you’re going to get on the subject of my weight loss journey.

I wouldn’t mind a few words of encouragement as I journey on, though.

Even though my body says, “You go, girl, eat that lean cuisine,” my taste buds want to bury themselves in a big bowl of macaroni and cheese and a bucket of fried chicken…

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Extra crispy…

With gravy…

No.

Bad taste buds.

 

 

 

 

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